This spring, we removed a large tree stump from between our house and garage. It was no small feat. In fact, it took a friend's backhoe (yes, we have a friend with his own backhoe) to dig out the surrounding soil, frost included, loosen up the roots with an ax, and then pull it out. It took hours. We then had a ton of backfill to do with the pit-run we had delivered earlier. We had used this pit-run to create a positive drainage situation from our driveway to the backyard, without nearing the house or garage. To say the least, there was a lot of pit-run. In case you are not aware, pit-run is a "dirty sand" mixture used to form a base of buildings, driveways, etc. It's heavy. It settles. It worked very well for our purposes.
Well, come to a couple days ago when I got home to find our phone not working. It said on the receiver, "no line." Strangely enough, my internet still worked. Until the next day.
I called the phone company and they suggested I test the line from the exterior box and that they'd put a request in to repair it in a couple of days. Super. They did forward my line to my cell phone so I wouldn't miss any calls, which was nice.
I came home from work and pulled out the princess phone; you know, the one with the "lanyard!" I took it under the deck and opened the box and plugged the phone line into it. Nothing. Well, it looked like they'd be paying for the repairs, right? Nope. My handyman hubby came home and realized that our pit-run had pulled the main line out of the box as it settled. Dang. It was our fault. The weight of our solution to our water issue had created a new disconnection.
I hate it when that happens in my "real" life.
I have felt so disconnected lately. My husband can hardly believe that since I am so tied to my computer and phone. It's not the same, though. You know. I wish I had been watching my "phone line" while setting up my solution for my "drainage problem." Yeah, that's vague. Sorry. I'll clarify. I have a great need to be connected to my family. I love them tremendously. They are incredibly valuable to me. All of them. I have not been able to spend time with them for a year and 3 months. I was so set on solving the "problem" of when to come to help my sister with their travel needs to Africa that I pulled the plug on my connection. This is all my doing. I don't remember praying about or seeking a way to keep that connection solid, because my focus was on the other. There's nothing detrimental about it, fortunately. Just like our phone connection, it can be reconnected and resumed. I'm just waiting for that to happen! My connection is vital for me, not because I put them above my husband or that I don't rely on Jesus to meet my needs, but it's because I love them and I want to be a part of their lives. I miss all the little things, and it's not the same to have to celebrate/grieve/live through big events through the airwaves. I'm looking forward to the day I walk down the aisle at the airport to see familiar faces, some growing up, and I can feel a bit more connected.
In the meantime, I have been in this holding pattern waiting for our house to sell in order to see what God is going to have us do! I was shown through our study of Experiencing God, that I need not wait. He is working right now around me and all I have to do is join Him. What am I waiting for? Again I'm focusing on the weighty solution for one issue and it's disconnected me from the most important relationship. This is a disconnect that can be immediately remedied!