Friday, May 6, 2011


It was time for me to refresh.  The blog and myself.

I made a hair appointment.  I plan on spending a ridiculous amount of money on my hair.  I absolutely hate to do it (really), but this "blah" feeling has got to change!  I think it's time to change it up and I can't do it myself.

Sounds like the rest of my life.  I need to make some long-term changes that I can't do myself.  I've somehow let myself gain some habits that I don't like and don't help me.  Most of these are mental habits.  I realized that my thought patterns are different than they used to be.  I used to be extremely flexible and rarely stressed over anything (to my husband's utter dismay).  I had very little fear in life.

Now I'm afraid.  I'm afraid that things will stay the same.  I am very strange in this, I know, but I've never loved "stability."  I've loved the constant change in life and the new challenges that bring new learning.  The limbo that we are in right now with the waiting of our house to sell (13 months now) is frustrating.  I feel boxed in, closed up, claustrophobic, powerless.

My plan (thanks to the prompting of friends' suggested reading and other ways of the Holy Spirit) is to actually employ the tactics that I have been avoiding for months.  Counting my blessings.  Praising the Lord.  Being grateful.  In other words, being pro-active against my "Eve-Complex."

As spiritual as it all sounds, I still need a physical jump-start!  Thus, my hair appointment next Thursday.

A fresh start.

1 comment:

  1. I remember when we were selling a house 3 yrs ago....we had renovated it thinking I could live in it even with my chemical allergies...there was a hidden chemical smell and I never could live in it! Not an easy time. It did happen though and God will walk you through this too. It will happen. My husband likes to say as we prepare our current home for sale and retirement, "God has this house sold already....we just don't know to who or when. His timing, His way." Praying for your home to sell and for the shift in mental thinking. Boy, I need that one too :)